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[Private to Jason, right after talking to Martha]

Where are you?

[Private to B'Elanna]

You busy?

[Private separately to Ray and Costigan]

How you been, guy?

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So, this is really it? You honestly don't believe you can get past all this without doing this?

[It was flat, passionless, maybe a little curious, and frankly? Patrick was starting to think this was all a load of bullshit.]

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[He just. Shuts his eyes in frustration. He can feel this slipping away, and he's not in a place where he can punch something. It's a while before he responds, low and careful.]

I have two choices, Patrick. I can choose to work with you or I can choose to stay myself. I would rather stay me, but I can't do what I need to do here, I can't go anywhere, I can't even die.

You asked me if I knew Bruce "loved" me. Of course I know. He's the only person who ever cared about me and stayed. Those are the best four years of my life. Everything important I've ever done, I've done because of him, for him, even when I was trying to kill him. He's my entire fucking life. There has to be more than that. Because I can't be his son. Not like this.

[That's as close as he's going to get to admitting changing might change that, and that he'd want that. It's not something he likes to speculate about. If Patrick somehow reprogrammed him, maybe Bruce would want him back... but he refuses to go that far. It's Bruce who taught him to stick to his principles.]

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Okay, so he's your whole fucking life. Why can't you build something else here with your memories? If you don't want to be his son anymore, oah if you think he doesn't want you around, then why can't you try to build something with what you have? The fact that you'ah admitting that you want to do something to change, oah you're willing to do something to change means somethin', unless you'ah lyin' to me and you just want to do this so you can get the fuck outta here as fast as possible and you don't really fuckin' care how it happens.

You said you've got two choices: work with me oah stay the same. Why can't you work with me, but keep yoah memories? This whole thing was your idea, and I've never been that on boahd with it. I'm willin' to do whatever it takes to get you out of heah, but this isn't how it's gonna happen.

I know it's hahd to start over, Jason, and I'm not sayin' this'll be easy or fast oah whatever. But erasing everything permanently? That's not progress. And it's not somethin' moah then what you have now. You want to be somethin' moah then what you ah right now? Then we'll work on it together. But I'm not lettin' you do this because it's easier, oah because you think it'll change everythin' with Bruce oah whatever. Progress is deciding to do somethin' positive with ourselves even if the past hurts, not gettin' Narvin to fuck around with your brain.

[And that was his final decision. Do with it what you will, Jason.]

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[The conflict of emotions stays mostly in his eyes, the rest of his expression sullenly stoic. It's hard to say whether he's really hearing Patrick or not, the way he's so still.]

Okay.

[Surprisingly subdued, he doesn't meet Patrick's eyes, but there's no tension in the word, no ominous calm that implies other plans in process. After a moment he just turns for the door.]